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May. 9th, 2007 | 01:05 pm

If you were down the street from my mind, you might hear echoes of my voice, screaming at the top of my apartment building. i am discontent.

i was supposed to be more affective than this. i'm sure of it. i was supposed to do more than sell Classified ads for a decent alt-weekly in Salt Lake City. My words were supposed to be louder than a snarky quip each week in the Staff Box.

Wasn't i made to love more deeply? To live more passionately? i feel like i lost myself somewhere, but i haven't been tracking my progress, so there are no bread crumbs to follow back home.

Maybe there was a point where i decided to stop listening in the silences, where i was always cock-sure that God was speaking. Maybe there was a time that i decided that i was better than that dreamy kid. i don't remember.

i've always believed that there is a point where everyone aches for something more, for somewhere deeper, but i don't know that i've really ever been there before now.

Something needs to change. Something must change.

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from: thedecomposer
date: May. 9th, 2007 09:24 pm (UTC)

many a bouncing souls and street dog's song might invoke some inspiration.

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from: jesseaxe
date: May. 10th, 2007 06:38 pm (UTC)

it's all you, man.
voice your desires, open up your hands and mind,
and the Universe will provide.
that's where my faith lies.

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